It's been awhile since we talked, too long really.  I don't know why I still long for us to be friends, but I do.  i miss you, not your body but your mind, it was the best thing of you,  You were smart, but the right type of smart, and my god how i wished i listened to you.

I feel like something is wrong.

I have this pain in my chest every now and then, not huge just a little ouch here and there; but I've also found myself out of breath way more than i ever should be.  Also lately i just been thinking, and if you know me in real life, thinking for me is a really, really bad thing.  I start to think about her, and how I miss her terribly, i doubt ill ever get over her really but whatever.  Idk what else to wright, sorry.

Hey guys.

me again, like anyone else would post on this. anyway today I have been pretty down, everyone just feels like they are avoiding me and, when i really wanna talk the vanish.  It doesn't help that i keep thinking of her and it   rips me apart every time.  I don't know if I'll ever be fixed, honestly I don't think i deserve being fixed.  literally every thing I do makes me remember, when i hate to say it but i should just forget.