Every Thing Will Be Allright

Hey everyone!  It's Shawn/Alex!!!

So it's been four years since I've been on this site, honestly I'm surprised it hasn't been deactivated.  Alot has changed since my lady post, and alot has stayed the same. It's an odd mix of equilibrium. Every good moment meets a bad but that's life.

I think I came back here cause it seems so random of a place so no one would look. Kinda like my own space to scream my thoughts? Possibly not.

My thoughts are screaming with so many things but in all honestly I have no idea where to start, like it's a hornets nest of mixed ideas and they all meet in a messy knot that I can't get undone recently.

One string being gender and sexuality, another being loneliness and how to cope with one's self. I want to understand every aspect of who I am as a person before I can safly anything definitely. Maybe this is a good place to start, who knows.

I'm so very tired, but haven't been able to sleep lately, when I do i have this dreams that turn sout so fast that it scares me to try again.

I'll try to keep this updated if I can remember, my little place away from the world. I do hope you can bear with me just a bit longer. I love you all so much.

Current mood; sad, yet hopeful.
Current music "The best of times" by Sage Francis